a sad story
its been a month and a half since he left me. its very hard. very painful. until now i still cant accept the fact that he’s gone. forever. i love him so much that’s why i cant let go of him. evry moment of each day, every place that weve been through always give me a heavy feeling. i dont know how to move on. may be i know but maybe i dont want to.
were very happy wayback then. evrything seemed perfect. a happy couple with a cute little son. yes, we argued but we dont fight. we also make it to a point to talk. i can say that i found a perfect husband. he loves us so much. (oh, God how i miss him!) i was always excited to see him coming home.
until this tragic day came. and evrything changed.
it was 7am when we woke up. there was no sign that something will happen that will change our lives. he was in the bathroom. while mokong and i were eating. and suudenly i heard a snoring sound from the bathroom. at first, i thought he was just brushing his teeth or something else, in short i didnt mind it. after a few minutes, stil hearing that sound, i decided to stand up and check my hubby. i knocked and shouted.. there was no reply… then i shouted for help. i knew from that time that he had his heart attackd. they forced to open the bathroom and there we saw his unconcious body… and everything is history… the greatest challenge in my life…
until now, as i flashed back from the time that we met to the time he left, im always crying. i thought i was brave. i thought that i can handle the situation. but that what i only thought. i feel that i lose my other wing. i lose a fight. no one knows how i truly feel even my family. they thought that i am already okay. even my friends. they asked how i passed that trial… if only they knew… i havent yet… im still holding back… i cant let go… the pain still remains.. i dont know until when…
